Well things are so much better now. Im pretty happy with the way they are. Im at Stacy's right now eating a snow cone. Its pretty good. lol Well im going to start writing again. i dont have internet at my house so im going to write when i come to stacy's.
Have a GREAT day.
Maggie
Monday, June 15, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Wowzers
Humm... So ive currently started taking my medicine again. I just hate knowing that I have a problem that I actually need to take medicine for, but I know its for the best.
It seems like i seriously have the worst luck ever, im not even kidding. I just recently found out that the guy ive liked since October (A few weeks after David and I broke up) likes me sister, Liz. That really pisses me off, but since ive been taking my medicine, I havent cried about. I am proud of myself, but im still very mad. Not at her of course, at him.
Also, I still kinda miss David. I know I could never be with him again though, because he hurt me so bad, and it would never be the same. But sometimes I think that I dont know how ill find something like that again. It was really special, and he got along with my family really well. But, shortly before we broke up, he kept me from going to stacy's. He didnt like us going over there because I didnt pay enough attention to him, and I payed too much attention to the kids. Also, he didnt like me going over there without him either, because, well yes I gave them alot of attention, which meant i took a while to text him back. Then he would get all pissy, so wed get in a fight. Everyone thought I was so mean to him, but I really liked him alot, and he always did do stuff like that that made me mad. I dont know, its complicated and no one really understood. I know now that we arent meant to be together, but I miss him in a way also.
I recently wrote a biography over a woman, Liz Jockman. Tell me what you think. I will be in the paper because they said mine was very interesting and Mrs. Kinyon told the photography to take pictures of me because I have the best facial expressions. So this was at the Richmond Nursing home And I was intervewing a resident, not knowing what i was doing, and there was someone there snapping pictures of me every minute. lol
I will put that on my next blog, and keep you in suspense
It seems like i seriously have the worst luck ever, im not even kidding. I just recently found out that the guy ive liked since October (A few weeks after David and I broke up) likes me sister, Liz. That really pisses me off, but since ive been taking my medicine, I havent cried about. I am proud of myself, but im still very mad. Not at her of course, at him.
Also, I still kinda miss David. I know I could never be with him again though, because he hurt me so bad, and it would never be the same. But sometimes I think that I dont know how ill find something like that again. It was really special, and he got along with my family really well. But, shortly before we broke up, he kept me from going to stacy's. He didnt like us going over there because I didnt pay enough attention to him, and I payed too much attention to the kids. Also, he didnt like me going over there without him either, because, well yes I gave them alot of attention, which meant i took a while to text him back. Then he would get all pissy, so wed get in a fight. Everyone thought I was so mean to him, but I really liked him alot, and he always did do stuff like that that made me mad. I dont know, its complicated and no one really understood. I know now that we arent meant to be together, but I miss him in a way also.
I recently wrote a biography over a woman, Liz Jockman. Tell me what you think. I will be in the paper because they said mine was very interesting and Mrs. Kinyon told the photography to take pictures of me because I have the best facial expressions. So this was at the Richmond Nursing home And I was intervewing a resident, not knowing what i was doing, and there was someone there snapping pictures of me every minute. lol
I will put that on my next blog, and keep you in suspense
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Thinkin too much again
Ok ok, so I know its been like forever since ive posted anything. But yea, my bad. Im at Stacy's right now and the kids are hiding from Roxanna and Greg who just got here. Silly kids. Lol
Im still livin at my dads. Im not quite sure how I like that. I like my mom's, but my dad's is ok. I dont come see my mom as much as I should, or Stacy, and it makes me feel so bad. The worst part is I Dont even have a good excuse. Its pure laziness. Im so lazy. My dad is Pennsylvania right now.
Lately Ive been going on walks around the land that my dad owns. It helps me releive stress becaues my meds dont seem to be working. It sorta helps but not really. A problem is I dont even remember what its like, or the last time I was happy. I can surround myself with a million people, and still feel all alone. I literally am never happy, I seem to be getting ok at hiding it, but in the end, it doesnt help at all. I dont know what to do... Nothing I can do I suppose. Im supposed to be the funny silly maggie I used to be, back when I was "happy". Why would Stacy, the kids, or my mom want the Sad, Depressed, Lazy Maggie around? I feel like im in a hole and i have to find a way to climb out- and I cant seem to figure out how.
Im still livin at my dads. Im not quite sure how I like that. I like my mom's, but my dad's is ok. I dont come see my mom as much as I should, or Stacy, and it makes me feel so bad. The worst part is I Dont even have a good excuse. Its pure laziness. Im so lazy. My dad is Pennsylvania right now.
Lately Ive been going on walks around the land that my dad owns. It helps me releive stress becaues my meds dont seem to be working. It sorta helps but not really. A problem is I dont even remember what its like, or the last time I was happy. I can surround myself with a million people, and still feel all alone. I literally am never happy, I seem to be getting ok at hiding it, but in the end, it doesnt help at all. I dont know what to do... Nothing I can do I suppose. Im supposed to be the funny silly maggie I used to be, back when I was "happy". Why would Stacy, the kids, or my mom want the Sad, Depressed, Lazy Maggie around? I feel like im in a hole and i have to find a way to climb out- and I cant seem to figure out how.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Havent posted in a while
So, I just finished a book by Lurlene McDaniel. She is best author ever. i strongly suggest reading her books. They make your life seem alot better when your done =) klol
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